I used to get butterflies in my stomach, upon seeing you in all your glory

I used to laugh out loud, in the hope of you noticing me

I used to visit the places you used to visit, to get one glimpse of you

And I got over you as soon as you became a constant in my life

Seeing you everywhere all the time made me realise what I had for you was

Just an infatuation,

A fleeting thought,

A sexual attraction, to your body and mind

Seeing you laugh still elicits a longing

A longing to belong

Somewhere

I know now

You are not the one

Not the one who will bring me

Happiness, peace and a home to belong

I don’t feel sad because I never had you

I feel sad that you never got to share my feelings